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Wednesday, December 03, 2008

. Confusing Confessions

How come just when you think everything is going the way it should, it starts to go the totally opposite direction.

It hurts to hurt your own heart but its even worst to hurt someone else's.

I'm in no position of going back "Into A Relationship" scene. Coz I gotta admit, it still hurts. It still aches me to receive phone calls with that particular name appearing.

Let's just let time tell everything. If we're meant to be or not. I've gotta be strong and not waver this time round.

Memories of you were on Playback in my mind just couple of days ago. It was nice to reminisce on the past. Simple little gestures could make me go gaga over you. But then, it wasn't so sweet at all towards the ending. My train of thoughts were focused on the hurt, your uncontrolable jealousy and my freedom.

That kept my thinking till today. You could say the I've forgiven you totally but dear friend, you did leave me with a huge scar for me to mend on my own. What was I suppose to say to you? Please enlighten me, please.

I think the best way is to strike any available options I have to avoid hurting any party.

I'm DONE. =)

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Thursday, October 02, 2008

. : Greatly Appreciated : .

To those of you who have been really concern and asked about my mum's condition, i wanna thank you.

Thank you so much for all the well wishes. My mum is fine at this point of time.

You guys know who you are.
Thanks, Loves.

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Thursday, September 25, 2008

. : PLEASE : .

Please please please, oh, please pray for me mummy. =(

*off to hospital now*

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Thursday, April 03, 2008

. : 1 to 19! : .

Since i've not been updating at all lately, i think now, more than ever, is the perfect timing to start updating. Why, you say? Maybe because as of today, i am exactly 1 month to becoming 19 years old. Not that i'm complaining or anything but, i feel like it's coming way too fast.

I feel like it was just yesterday my classmates threw a surprise mini 18th birthday celebration in school for me.. And now i'll be turning 19 next month. Boo! I think time is moving too fast for me to appreciate things.

But during my 18th year on this Earth, I can safely say that I've achieved a lot more that I think I could.. for instance, i took up Rock Climbing as a CCA for the fun of it, but it's starting to grow in me. I actually like to climb. I've even participated in a Rock Climbing competition, mind you. All along, I've only played badminton for leisure but last February, I took part in a badminton challenge in school, in collaboration with World Women's Day. And guess what, I got 3rd place overall and won a bronze medal. I also took part in water polo for the World Women's Day thingy and got 2nd place and a silver medal. I got 1st in class for my religious class exams. Only recently I knew that I could bake cakes and such, which meant another achievement for me because people kept ordering from me. =) And during my 18th year on Earth, I've met such wonderful people, and I'm glad that I know because without them, I dont think I'll achieve these things at all.

This is a conversation between me and my mom a couple of days ago..

Mom: What do you want for this year's birthday?
Me: Urmm.. I think I've got everything already..
Mom: What is it that you think I can do for you for your birthday?
Me: Can you take motorcycle license for me *gleeming delightedly*?

What more can I possibly want?

I've got loving family who cares about me. (Til a van full of family members supported me during my FIRST EVER rock climbing competition!)

I've got friends who never fails to give me their support in whatever I do.. (seriously!!)

I've got a boyfriend who never fails to encourage me to be better than where I already am. (he says, 'never settle for ok when you know you can do better'.)

I've got beautiful people surrounding me with joy, happiness and laughter. (Oh Allah, please bless all these people who have showered Your slave here, with all the love, You can possibly bless. Amin)

The Babe said this to me last night..

Me: I wanna write 'Things I've achieved while being 18-years-old' on our blog lah.

Babe: Eh, you are 18 already? I thought you're still 17?

Me: Ouh yah.. I forgot.. I'm sweet 17, right?

Which comes to my next topic.. I don't look like my age.. People in US, looked a lot more matured than I am when they are 17, for example, Jordin Sparks. She looks like someone in her mid-20s already, and she hasn't even reach the number 2-something on her age. Can you imagine how old she'll look in 10 years from now??

I'm glad I don't look that old now. But it still bugs me why Sec 1 girls these days are trying to act way beyond their age. Putting thick make-ups on their faces like those EERIE clowns with wide smile painted on their face.. EEWWWWWWW!! ok at this point onwards, I'm already scaring myself.. let's just end it here..

On a lighter note, I'LL BE TURNING 19 on 3rd MAY!!!! I WANT PRESENTS PEOPLE!!!! GO DIG YOUR POCKETS NOW!!!! muahahahaha!!

much love ,

-khai

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Monday, February 11, 2008

. : FUN'S The Word! : .

After nearly three months of planning to go out with the Sunday Religious Class Gang, we finally made our debut of going out together just now.

My mum cooked for us whereas the Babe bought titbits from NTUC -all this was done from the moment I woke up till the moment the Babe and I realised that we were late for our class prolly ard 12 noon (but our class starts at 1130 am. so do the math on how long we were late. hah) Wana could not make it cause she has to see her grandmum, whereas Sarah and Hajar had to be at their grangmum's funeral. (Al-Fatehah)

We psychoed Hakim, Wana's brother, to join us. And so he did. Waited for Ustazah Safiah, who was from home, and Ustazah Aishah, who wanted to change into something comfy. We made our way to East Coast and reached there around 430 pm. Searched for a nice spot to seat which took us about half an hour and ta-daa.. a nice, clean hut! We laid the canvas and spread the sleeping bag open. We ate, played game and basically had fun. All of us were really enjoying the part where we get to hit the rest with the Coke 1.5L Pet Bottle on the hand during Heart Attack. Especially Ustazah Aishah, she was laughing the whole time when she got the chance to hit us. Hah.

Played till nearly 7 pm and Fazirah and Firdaus' parents reached to pick them up. Packed up and we headed home. Had to walk all the way back to MacD to get to our bus stop. Hakim was funny when he saw a girl walking..

Hakim: "Eheh.. ade penguin ah.."
Me: "Penguin?? -_-'' Asal seh penguin??"
Hakim: "Kiter skarang dah tak panggil chicks lagi. Kiter skarang panggil penguin. Masih dalam Bird family per."
Me: "Ya Allah.. *smacked forehead*"

The journey back home was not as nice though. Throughout the whole 1-hour journey, the 3 secondary school girls behind us were yapping all the way from Marine Parade to Hougang. We could not care less about them and actually get an eye shut for a good half an hour.. Reached home, ate the pizza that my sister made and slacked in front of this laptop since 930 pm.

It is advisable for me to actually sleep now cause a) it is already 3 am. b) i have FOF practical test tomorrow. No. Its TODAY. =[ c) my eyes felt like as if 2 4-tonnes crate are on top of my eye lids. Yes. It is that HEAVY.

much love,
-khai

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Wednesday, January 02, 2008

. : Chalet : .

" girls just wanna have fun"
the 'my-life-was-hanging-by-a-thread-when-i-was-carrying-this-cake' cake
btw, i baked this cake. =)
izza handed over her SECRETARY post to me.. nyehehe

the night was still young then..
and so we bbq-ed!
a little camwhoring doesn't hurt..
or does it??

much love,

-khai

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Tuesday, March 06, 2007

As much as she wanna tell the whole world,
That her life is very much a twirl;
It's too big a problem to hide,
But she just has to keep it inside.
Sometimes she just wanna run from here,
But problems simply caught up with her;
She's nearly losing her mind on what to do,
But she knows she's got to fight it through.

* * *

Even the person whom co-owns this blog, does not know about my situation. hmm.. Oh yeah.. went to watch Chingay with the babes.. let the picture do the talking aite people..

Chingay + Boredom = Pictures (read: we were dying!)

Fiqa.

Ubb.

Khai.

happy people (read: going crazy in ride home!)

Karen Millen (read: WHATEVER!!)

U-

K-

F-

toodles.. =)

p/s: to the people who read or rather visit my blog, im greatly sorry for not updating for quite sometime.. so here i am pledging (read: not promising) to update as much as possible from now on..

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